Hello everyone, I've come out from one of my successful hiatus (finally!). I haven't touched this blog for half-a-year. How are things here lately? I looks like everyone is dead... oh my ghulay...

Maintaining a blog is hard nowadays... well, for me of course. There are some people are comfortable doing it. They are gifted ones with the power of words and a bunch of ideas in my mind put together to form a great post, so great that everyone steals them and claims the stolen entries as theirs (okay, that's the sad part) but it doesn't stop most authors to make astounding entries.

With the proliferation of this so-called hype called Facebook, it made matters worse. I got to the point that I never respnded to game requests because I'm too busy with my FarmVille, Mafia Wars and Vampire Wars. But after the great flood, thanks to Typhoon Ondoy, I got back to my senses that I should not dependent to those games.

So... what should I post? Posting for a nerdy introduction sounds bland.

Maybe I'll save my words for later, when the inspiration strikes...

Good day.

yey!

Election time is just around the corner. In a few months time, we'll be electing new public officials--people who are to protect our rights and advocate for the good of everyone. Unfortunately, I have to say that Philippine politics is somehow smudged with dirt. Many of the candidates have started airing their "public ads" and have been promoting themselves for the longest time now. The political ads make me very nauseated. They keep on promising the Filipinos a brighter future but history has proven that they do not fulfill these promises more often than not. Should they be like the Japanese, many of them would have committed harakiri after being suspected of dishonesty as a public official.

Campaigning has started early. Some of them who have the billions to spend on ads include Mar Roxas, Juan Ponce Enrile, Chiz Escudero and Manny Villar. Yuck! They all sound pathetically desperate to win the elections. Do they really mean what they say on tv or are they just doing these thing half-heartedly with the main intention of earning big amounts of money when they already have the power. Oh, I forgot to mention Erap Estrada who, after being granted pardon is now also in the race for the presidency. How greedy, pathetic and ungrateful he is. I don't know what will happen to us if he wins again. I bet foreign investors will run away from us having elected an "ex-convict" for president. Filipinos, you have to think, think and think again before we cast that vote next year.

My family re-registered at the Comelec last month. We had to do such because we failed to vote during the last elections. I'm still pondering on whether or not to use that one vote I'm entitled to next election because I'm doubtful if it would make a difference. Nakakapagod at nakakasawa nang makitang nangungurakot ang mga opisyal ng gobyerno. Again, the question of whether one vote would make sense lies in everyone of us. Maybe if majority of us would use our common sense during the elections, we would be able to elect a sensible leader that would re-create a new Philippine Republic.

gospel of horns i think at center for arts.

an all hollows eve event!

can't wait till tomorrow...

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Dreaming of more books in the future...

1. Name: bianxraquel
2. Age: 26
3. Birthday: 10/11/83
4. Location: QC, La Union
5. School: Siena College QC, Christ the King College, La Union National High School, UP College Baguio, FEU - Fern Diliman, Our Lady of Fatima University Valenzuela, La Union College of Nursing, Arts and Sciences. Hey, what can I say? I love schools.
6. Height: 5'4
7. Bloodtype: O
8. Religion: Catholic
9. Hobbies: I like to listen to all sorts of music, I have a knack for taking photos of everything that piques my interest, I sometimes write crap in this blog, I was once a very mushy person who used to create poetry (depending on the guy she meets) rofl
10. Personality: Slightly introverted; Extremely Shy, but becomes uber-confident when drunk
11. When you're the happiest: When there's food, when there's something to read, when I hang out at the beach, and when I hang out with someone who shall not be named. Voldemort? Hoho.
12. Your biggest complaint currently: I need a paying job. Tsss
13. What you wear when you sleep: Shirt and shorts
14. A hairstyle you like on the opposite gender: Long Haired and/or Short Haired ones with a tinge of goatee. It depends really. I usually get attracted to long haired guys, I tend to stare at them more than the short-haired ones. But if I were like, serious with someone I usually don't care anymore. I mean it's just hair, if I like 'em long on someone they could always grow it back anyway.
15. Ideal guy: Someone I can be best friends with at the same time; smart, understanding, extremely sweet, romantic, mushy regardless of how 'metal' he is, someone I can go to places with and not give a damn about where, someone I can enjoy doing things with without being awkward or uncomfy. A musician, an artist, a writer. Any and all. I don't know. I've always liked the artsy/musician types.
16. Habits: Moderate www.filipinometal.com/forums, go online for hours on end, read books, watch dvd's, eat, sleep, smoke, drink, repeat
17. Favorite fruit: Mango, Banana, Pineapple
18. Favorite vegetable: Squash, Brocolli, Potatoes, String Beans, Sitaw, Sayote
19. Guy celebrities you think are good looking: Johnny Depp baby
20. Girl celebrities you think are pretty: Charlize Theron would be one. Then there's Kate Hudson
21. A treasured posession: I don't know...
22. Numbers you like: 11, 8, 15, 16, 27
23. Things that stress you: Nursing Career Path and not having any income for the past 9 months
24. My bad qualities: I have a tendency of becoming too clingy and emotional, paranoid at times. But I'm working on them. At least it's not as evident as before.
25. Your mood right now: Just plain tired.
26. What you want to do right now: I want to hug someone so badly right now.
27. A kid you like: My brothers Enzo and Miguel
28. Food you like: Anything meat! But lately I'm loving lamb and beef longganisa, and bawit's cebu longganisa. I like tocino too. and Sisig. And I'll never live to see 60. Lol
29. Food you don't like: Ampalaya. Kahit ikuskos mo pa siya sa asin para hindi maging mapait. No way man.
30. Shoe size: 8 1/2?
31. Drinking capacity: It depends on the day, who I'm drinking with and if I feel like drinking. There was one time I outdrank all my guy tropas, there were times when all we had was wine and I had to crawl on the way home
32. Cigarette: I started with Marlboro Greens when I was in Highschool. Then it shifted to Marlboro Reds + Snow Bear; then it was Marlboro Gold. There was a time that I even smoked Phillip Morris. Now it's back to Marlboro Greens.
33. A movie that made you sad: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
34. A childhood dream: To be a Cardiovascular Surgeon. Now I know why I couldn't be, and why I wanted to be one before. (grins)
35. Motto: Mmmm.
36. Bedtime: Weee hours of the morning
37. Your future hope: successful nurse, steady income, married, family, happy.
38. Do you think you're the type that laughs easily: It depends on who makes me laugh
39. Something you cook well: eggs! and mmm. hotdogs. anything processed, fried or instant
40. Where do you live right now?:that's a weird question. I still don't know. I'm not very sure. But I live anywhere my heart leads me to.
41. A event that remains in your memory: A lot. Read my blog and these are the memories, bad and good.
42. What you say often: Sheesh
43. First kiss: I dont remember
44. If you did, where: refer to answer above
45. When you see a guy, where do you look first: Any part of the face.
46. If you suddenly got a million dollars?: I'd have my family buy whatever they want first, whatever's left of the million dollars, I'd spend it on myself. Like... a nice DSLR, a car maybe, and a place of my own.
47. A drama that you had fun watching?: I dont like drama.
48. A movie you had fun watching?: Anything with Adam Sandler in it.
49. Eyesight: 20/20 yata
50. Destressing methods: Sleep. Getting myself drunk to release the stress. Cry.
51. What you want to learn: i want to learn how to unlearn things so i could start anew.
64. What you want to do: I want to be happy.
65. If your boyfriend was dying: I would never leave his side. Except for bathroom breaks.
66. When do you feel like you hate yourself: All the time.
67. About relationships before marriage: I feel like I suck at relationships. So I don't know
68. Lifestyle principle: Live your life one day at a time. Never expect too much, or too little. Be happy for the moment, and when there are regrets, take them as life lessons and start all over again. You'd be scared, yes, but eventually you'll get there, be with someone you've always wanted, and be loved the way you've always dreamed of being loved.
69. Weather that I like: Whatever weather it is just before Christmas
70. When is your TV time: Almost never
71. Precious friends: Diwi, Louie, Mel Manyak, Karen, Kel and hmm who else.
72. Life is?: this.
73. Favorite drink: Red Horse, Red Wine, Vodka-Sprite, Rhum-Coke
74. Favorite meal: Tocilog, Sisilog, LAMB gosh
75: Favorite cookies: Chips Ahoy
76. If you break up with your boyfriend, you would go: Done. I've grown apathetic to the last break up that it just didn't matter anymore.
77. A teacher you respect: My philosophy professor in UP College Baguio and the finance professor at FEU Fern. But I forgot their names.
78. Introduce your family: Hi. My name is bianx and I have four siblings, two from my mom, and two from my dad. See, they long since separated when I was six. Then they remarried. From my mom there's Enzo who is now 14 and Miguel, who is 17 and taking up Entrepreneurship. Both study in Angelicum. Now as for my other two siblings, they're both in La Union. One is Henry Arvin, and I don't know how old he is now, and there's Haidi Jarene. I think they're 15 and 11 respectively. So I'm the eldest of us five.
79. Happiness is: appreciating the simplest things in life. (I couldn't have said it better myself)
80. A birthday present that you remember most: Highschool. When my mom gave me this small inspirational book with quotes in 'em.
81. Favorite animal: Dog
82. Favorite plant: Uhm. I don't like plants. Except maybe if it's the small cactuses that doesn't need much watering.
83. Favorite season: Just before christmas, whatever you call that season. Oh I like surfing season
84. About antis: ?
85. If you had to choose between love or friendship: I say both. But it starts with the latter, so it will just eventually sprout, you know, that overrated word. Bleh. I mean love.
86. If the world was to come to an end tomorrow: then I hope it's not too painful.
87. Singing skills: Only in videokes!
88. Dancing skills: I used to be part of the Dance Varsity in UP Baguio called 'Tayaw'. We used to do modern/ethnic interpretative dances that involves much splits, high kicks and skimpy skin-tight tights..
89. Your theme song: I have two. 3 Libras by A Perfect Circle and Gorecki by Lamb
90. Current obsession?: a DSLR. Nikon D60 and a VR 18 - 200 mm lens
91. Favorite fruit tree: Mmmmm.
92. What do you feel about relationships where a girl is older than the boy: Uhm, never tried so no idea.
93. If you were to die tomorrow: there's not much I can do.
94. When do you want to marry: I don't know really. I'd be lucky if I ever get married. I've had thoughts that I may never will, just because nothing ever works out for me
95. Yourself 20 years later: Hopefully happy.
96. A country you want to see the most: Italy!
97. E-mail: ? bianxraquel@yahoo.com
98. What you want to say to those who read this: Hey ho, let's go!
99. If you had a trait you want to fix: Be more sociable
100. Last word: Word.

After having a short photo shoot at Rizal Park, we headed to Harbor Square to have dinner. It has been a long time since we had Nanay come along with us so we have to make the night special. We had dinner at Dencio's even if mom did not have the likings for the resto. We had sari-saring sinugba (grilled pork, tuna and squid), chopseuy (mixed vegetables), kare-kare (beef and tripe in peanut sauce) and lumpia (spring rolls). Patrick had 2 rounds of rice as always while Nanay had Dad's half of rice plus another one of her own. We had a hearty meal and good photos as well. Dad and I went to Starbucks to have coffee afterwards while Mom, Pat and Nanay strolled along the bay and took more photographs.

I'm planning to buy a new Starbuck's tumbler after the payday. I broke mine a couple of months ago and I'm currently using the smaller personalized tumbler. I need a bigger one to satisfy my coffee cravings.

Sometimes, I don't get myself anymore. Why I am the way I was, why I leave QC for La Union. I always used to say that in La Union, I am happy. Now I know what the difference is between happy - La Union and happy - Manila - Now.

In La Union, I feel free. There is no limit to the hours I can go out, the places I can go to. I am free; some people call my name and I have no idea who they are. San Fernando is too small a town - it's a place where you can win small literary contests in and have everybody know who you are the succeeding days. I felt free; on days when I am extremely depressed, I could just go to the nearby surf capital of the North, San Juan, buy myself a beer and watch the sunset.

I have tasted the good life, really, having been subjected to the basketball treatment (where I used to be the ball and I get tossed around from one place to another, by my dad, my mom, my grandmom and an aunt) and Quezon City, Diliman, Meycauayan and La Union were the home courts. I've tasted luxury, I know what it felt like to live extravagantly from at least two out of the three home courts. But it all boils down to this: simple things - that's what makes me happy.

And again, happy, being the overrated word that it is, is just that again. A word. A word that I rarely use, but I'm using it now.

But what are simple things? Eat street food. Hang out at your fave spot without spending too much except for the occasional booze and obligatory cigarettes. Eat tocilog at your neighborhood Pares house. Taking long walks along Session Road and/or Burnham Park, alone. Watching passers-by and being fascinated by them while sipping your morning coffee. Going online for hours on end. Go to the mall and window shop. Go to the metal gigs that you so love. Soundtrip for hours while staring at the ceiling. Taking photos of random things. Simple things that do not involve money (or too much of it). Simple, fun things. Things that you do that are never high maintenance; things that you do that most people would say 'yuck' to.

Going back, happiness in La Union is happiness when I am alone. Now, although I am technically alone, I don't feel so lonely anymore.

I love hangouts. I love isaw. I love lamb. I love beef longganisa. I love everything about the last two weeks. Heck, include September. There is nothing that I would change, save for probably the initial purpose as to how it came to be. But I find it nice, and more of a blessing in disguise. 

Freeze moments. I hope it's possible. So I can put them in a li'l box and have an excuse to be nostalgic.